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I am your paini wasn't supposed to love you, i wasn't supposed to care.
but most recently i have lived my life just wishing you were there.
i didn't want to fall, i didn't want to let go.
but now everything about you is all i want to know.
i said that i loved you, that you are my only one.
but in the end i found my love is like a gun.
i spit poison in my words, and venom in my look.
i sit here typing about my life titled "the open book"
just take a look around, read what what i have said.
what other lies did i say? what other false hope have i spread?
i don't like to to say i'm a player, no too much credit that doth give.
but how can i repent, will you ever be able to forgive?
the things i have done, i am not proud to say
all the tricks i played just to get a good lay.
i am a worthless person, there is a reason i am alone.
it's because if you sctatch away the bright surface not one ray of light has shown.
listen to me now i will tell you what to do.
if you get out now there is a chance i won't hurt
five hour energyi suppose
last week was only an aftershock
of the earthquake you were before.
this place used to vibrate
with metal strings and melodic,
testimonies to life,
emitting coffee-scented moods
and the burn of it too.
i had memorized the
sounds of silence,
i couldn't help but relish it.
no longer had i known
the sounds of folk
and scent of mocha-
you became nothing more
than an echo of the laughter
i so desperately needed to hear again.
then the echoes got louder,
bouncing ferociously off the walls
to be made manifest
i walked into your room
expecting exactly what i found-
an unmade bed,
and an empty beer
(the one that you insisted you needed
just days ago).
i pressed my nose
into the pillow
for incense and cologne and starbucks
to penetrate my mind
and thinking fervently
i already know
what a clean sheet smells like."
how strong an aftershock can be,
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